Friday, March 30, 2012

Do not read the directions




Most times, it is because we took the wrong turn that we landed on the right path. 


Thursday, March 29, 2012

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Small talk



What is obvious betwen the lines
Is this uncanny vibe
Between you and I.

You ought to remember,
Mid-small talk,
We used to be so fond of each other.

Today we talk like strangers,
As if our life had not capsized
Since those days are over.

Candidly asking how we are;
So we hyperbolize the lie
And I am curious:
How can standing so close feel so far?

I wish to intervene,
Say it is alright to want the air cleared
To unmask what is in between.

But I am not about to reveal
That my heart still palpitates
And missing you has been my horrific ordeal.

After our brief encounter,
With hearts left unspoken,
I will smile, Take care, and
                                      Enjoy the sunny weather!


Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Monday, March 19, 2012

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Behind every joke


I am not the kind to hold a grudge
Especially if I know on some level
It is a bullet I am supposed to dodge

You were probably joking
So it is weird for me to insist
That your words were upsetting

Maybe I am reading too much into this
But were you not just pointing out
That bits and pieces of me are a tease

I would understand if others bantered
But coming from you, my friend
On this subject, your attitude tortured

Not very fond of sarcasm
And making me an object of ridicule
Specially from you, is so seldom

Pardon me if I snapped
For the damage that it caused me
Is something I cannot drop

It stings because it is you
For behind every joke
There's a tad bit truth

Now I muse on what is worse
That I think you meant it
Or you do not realize it hurts.


Monday, March 12, 2012

Farewell, former self



Had the dream
One lifetime ago
Of becoming someone
I know I'll never become
Today.
It was the battle of my life
Regardless of my sighs
Hanging to a thread
Holding on to all I ever wanted.
Life happens
And so do
Accidents
Though God's plans are bigger
Mine felt similar.
 I struggled so much
But it was never enough
And I bid farewell
A long time ago
To a dream
That I couldn't let go.
It aches me 
Even if I made my peace
At times, I still find myself 
Exchanging blows with 
My former self.
Though thrilled to be where
I am now
When time warps
I wonder how it could have been
If my story would be
Rewritten.
Does anyone ever find out
Why things happen 
For a reason?
God's plans are bigger
But mine felt similar
So I try to find 
Each time I am thrown back
The solace in my heart
Live both lives with no regrets 
Because I know I gave it my best.


Tuesday, March 6, 2012

143




Could you ever love with an expiration date
Still carry on when separation will be your fate
Temporary exaltation to venture into this affair  
Get so deeply imbued in someone before despair
      Understand that it is an impossibility
An emotional investment without consistency
Need one that will dive rather than just tests waters
It is no great story, if you don't give yourself entirely
Love is believing in forever
Risk yourself and losing your barrier
All that's frightening pushes for commitment
     But what you get in return is enlightenment
An inspiration in everything you do
And a heightened sense of feelings too
I love you does not seek a happy end
But a path that simply does not end



Monday, March 5, 2012

(Un)aware



Nothing more puzzling than losing something you didn't even know you had.


Friday, March 2, 2012

Intertwined



People come into your life for a reason,
whether they will change the course of a day, a season or a lifetime.


Thursday, March 1, 2012

You had to ruin it


You had to ruin it
Come here and leave a print
Now every time I enter
All things are a reminder

It was my private space
Mine alone, in good and bad days
Where I was safe to be myself
Flaunting my weirdness on the shelf

But it wasn't an intrusion
It was all my own intention
I knew once I opened the door
These inhibitions tossed on the floor

Willingly letting you in my room
 Intoxicated with your perfume
And I beam every time I think back
To all my details, you're now attached

Since that night, not a day goes by
I am different since you came by
Yet more myself than I've ever been
My cocoon's yours since you've stepped in.

Now you have to keep it
Come back here and leave more prints
Because my room will feel empty
Because without you, I am just me