non-competition, non-comparison

You do not need something to be smaller in order to feel really big.

The Others in Me

Sometimes, being selfish is the most selfless thing you can do.

Behind every joke

I am not the kind to hold a grudge

Especially if I know on some level

It is a bullet I am supposed to dodge

You were probably joking

So it is weird for me to insist

That your words were upsetting

Maybe I am reading too much into this

But were you not just pointing out

That bits and pieces of me are a tease

I would understand if others bantered

But coming from you, my friend

On this subject, your attitude tortured

Not very fond of sarcasm

And making me an object of ridicule

Specially from you, is so seldom

Pardon me if I snapped

For the damage that it caused me

Is something I cannot drop

It stings because it is you

For behind every joke

There's a tad bit truth

Now I muse on what is worse

That I think you meant it

Or you do not realize it hurts.

Farewell, former self

Had the dream

One lifetime ago

Of becoming someone

I know I'll never become

Today.

It was the battle of my life

Regardless of my sighs

Hanging to a thread

Holding on to all I ever wanted.

Life happens

And so do

Accidents

Though God's plans are bigger

Mine felt similar.

 I struggled so much

But it was never enough

And I bid farewell
A long time ago

To a dream
That I couldn't let go.

It aches me 

Even if I made my peace

At times, I still find myself 

Exchanging blows with 

My former self.

Though thrilled to be where
I am now

When time warps

I wonder how it could have been

If my story would be
Rewritten.

Does anyone ever find out

Why things happen 

For a reason?

God's plans are bigger

But mine felt similar

So I try to find 

Each time I am thrown back

The solace in my heart

Live both lives with no regrets 

Because I know I gave it my best.

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Could you ever love with an expiration date

Still carry on when separation will be your fate

Temporary exaltation to venture into this affair  

Get so deeply imbued in someone before despair

      Understand that it is an impossibility

An emotional investment without consistency

Need one that will dive rather than just tests waters

It is no great story, if you don't give yourself entirely
Love is believing in forever
Risk yourself and losing your barrier
All that's frightening pushes for commitment
     But what you get in return is enlightenment
An inspiration in everything you do
And a heightened sense of feelings too
I love you does not seek a happy end
But a path that simply does not end

(Un)aware

Nothing more puzzling than losing something you didn't even know you had.

Intertwined

People come into your life for a reason,
whether they will change the course of a day, a season or a lifetime.

You had to ruin it

You had to ruin it

Come here and leave a print

Now every time I enter

All things are a reminder

It was my private space

Mine alone, in good and bad days

Where I was safe to be myself

Flaunting my weirdness on the shelf

But it wasn't an intrusion

It was all my own intention

I knew once I opened the door

These inhibitions tossed on the floor

Willingly letting you in my room

 Intoxicated with your perfume

And I beam every time I think back

To all my details, you're now attached

Since that night, not a day goes by

I am different since you came by

Yet more myself than I've ever been

My cocoon's yours since you've stepped in.

Now you have to keep it

Come back here and leave more prints

Because my room will feel empty

Because without you, I am just me

One more day

Tell me, just how lucky am I?
This year, I have got one more try;
An extra day to prove to you
That for months now, my dream came through.

A lot of times, I wonder how;
So every day I make a vow.
You are God's answer to my prayer;
This kind of certainty is rare.

Blessed to be given one more day
Because in each possible way,
My life has straightened since you're mine;
And I'll love you, come rain or shine.

These are blissful days we compile,
Another day to make you smile.
You alone set my heart on fire,
Of you I will never tire.